Friday, April 23, 2004
Well, that's one way to lower class sizes
NEA supports pro-abortion rally this weekend in Washington DC.
NEA supports pro-abortion rally this weekend in Washington DC.
Friday, April 02, 2004
What God is Teaching me about Developmental Delay
Yesterday, the Special School District in our county arranged for an IEP to determine my daughter's Education Diagnosis so that a proper placement for next year (she starts Kindergarten) could be determined.
The Speech Path, OT, PT, her current Special Ed teacher, and a diagnostician from the SSD were all present as were her mother and myself. I, along with a few others, had been asked to fill out a Vineland Adaptive Behavior Instrument to help them determine her level of functioning.
I knew she was behind. The group, from various instruments and input determined that her functional level is about age 2.5. Her chronological age is about 5.5. Intellectually I knew this, but I guess it never really travelled that 18" down to my heart. I wanted so much to believe that she was better than that.
I'm taking this far harder than I ever thought possible. The little girl I wanted to believe in has been replaced by the little girl who is.
While I love her more than I can ever express in words, the anguish I feel at having to confront this news in my heart is almost overwhelming. The sense of loss and grief for the little girl I wanted is far more intense than I ever thought possible.
And even through all of this, God is mercifully revealing the way He sees my daughter, but also the way He sees me. He loves me so much that He can't even begin to articulate it, and yet the anguish He feels because I'm not the person He created me to be, is palpable.
Thank you God for this small glimpse into your view. It has touched my heart in ways that I can't yet comprehend, and may never be able to comprehend.
I can only love my daughter more deeply and more completely now that God has removed the blinders from my heart and I thank Him for that.
Yesterday, the Special School District in our county arranged for an IEP to determine my daughter's Education Diagnosis so that a proper placement for next year (she starts Kindergarten) could be determined.
The Speech Path, OT, PT, her current Special Ed teacher, and a diagnostician from the SSD were all present as were her mother and myself. I, along with a few others, had been asked to fill out a Vineland Adaptive Behavior Instrument to help them determine her level of functioning.
I knew she was behind. The group, from various instruments and input determined that her functional level is about age 2.5. Her chronological age is about 5.5. Intellectually I knew this, but I guess it never really travelled that 18" down to my heart. I wanted so much to believe that she was better than that.
I'm taking this far harder than I ever thought possible. The little girl I wanted to believe in has been replaced by the little girl who is.
While I love her more than I can ever express in words, the anguish I feel at having to confront this news in my heart is almost overwhelming. The sense of loss and grief for the little girl I wanted is far more intense than I ever thought possible.
And even through all of this, God is mercifully revealing the way He sees my daughter, but also the way He sees me. He loves me so much that He can't even begin to articulate it, and yet the anguish He feels because I'm not the person He created me to be, is palpable.
Thank you God for this small glimpse into your view. It has touched my heart in ways that I can't yet comprehend, and may never be able to comprehend.
I can only love my daughter more deeply and more completely now that God has removed the blinders from my heart and I thank Him for that.
